JOSEPHINE :D

2012-02-12T19:28:00.002+08:00

‎"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.

If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.

For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."

- Mother Teresa

2012-02-11T18:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was shitty but your SMS just put a big bright smile on my face :))

highlights

2012-02-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hodge lodge highlights (HLHL!) was two days of utter madness but it was good all the same. having too many j1s coming is a happy problem to have, it means our publicity was good xD

again, i love our video :)

2012-02-10T07:09:00.001+08:00

Oops I accidentally deleted my post with the highlights video, shall post it again later! It's too nice not to share hahaha. The fruit of our labour xD

Highlights day 1 was madness hahaha but fun:) today will be better!

Holes inside

2012-02-09T23:22:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I amaze myself. Who else can fall and injure themselves in a lecture theatre?! ugly bruise and occasional shooting pains along my left leg when I walk ._.

if you hold tight, fate and your dreams will collide

2012-02-08T23:34:00.001+08:00

haha i just saw sudeep's tweet: "i hate hate hate mixed feelings". so true. oh well.

today was.. interesting.

lessons were not bad, econs was a pleasant surprise (hard work pays off for once haha), and audiomob was quite a unique one of a kind experience! and definitely worth all the hard work that the WTS comm put in :) and so many people from 7A went!

YAY (: good job steph and deep and everyone else :)

had a semi htht with keivin for like 2 hours after that HAHA - that was interesting. never knew he thought about certain things in certain ways but oh well people will always surprise you i suppose! in a good way :) went grocery shopping for HL highlights with foong and sudeep after that, then back to school to wait for adalie's odac to end!

The best part was that after i met adalie we went back to j8 again -.- haha dapao-ed food and did homework all the way till 10.30 in our favourite place in school :) math for me and bio for her yay we are good kids :))

hodge lodge highlights tmr!

fingers crossed, let's see what happens hahaha

2012-02-05T23:27:00.001+08:00

Haha shouldn't have hoped for anything. Always happens pffffffft.

2012-02-04T09:29:00.002+08:00

Yummyyyyyy :D

omnomnomnom hehe i think i take really nice pictures of food. drool-worthy!

Thats what makes you beautiful

2012-02-03T21:04:00.001+08:00

I'm amazed at how beautifully some people write. So poetic. I wish I wrote as well :(

Anyway I've never felt more thankful for my class than this week, everyone has been amazing (: I laughed so much, talked to so many different people, did so many interesting things and at the same time managed to finish all my homework (haven't touched any revision but oh well step by step!)

Tuesday - met my buddy after school :D the last time I'll see him with his einstein hair HAHA. Chem tuition with Amanda and Cailyn after that ((:

Wednesday - studied with Yunze and Bok at the library, then had dinner at thomson with my bestfriend (:

Thursday - Studied at hullet library with someone really really unexpected! Haha but it was goooood(:

Friday - SET UP THE XBOX AT THE HL with Foong! :D For 2 Xbox noobs at least we managed to get it all working! Yay us(:

And of course, not forgetting my early morning meetings with the pongz which make my day, (nearly) everyday (:

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Yesterday I read this article that mentioned how the happiest people are those who are able to have deep conversations with others. I mean it can go two ways, that people who engage in mindless conversations are happier and carefree, but on the contrary all of us have this subconscious desire to connect with others on a deeper emotional level, hence the need for more substantial conversations :)

And I think I managed to have one such conversation every day this week. Both during school and out of it. I feel so... Emotionally satisfied HAHA. :)

I actually love going to school because I genuinely love 7A and the amazing people in it haha (: you all made me forget the reason why I was sad in the first place :)

Waist deep in thought

2012-01-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

I dont know what to feel. Was talking to someone and it's comforting to know that he feels the same way about this whole thing. At first i thought that i was the only one who felt like this, but now at least we can sort of.. commiserate with each other about this? :/

It's hard to explain the feeling to anyone else so I often don't bother trying. (But you summed that feeling up in 2 smses so oh welllllll) I don't know whether to be sad or relieved or resigned. I think i'm feeling a bit of everything.

But I don't want to dampen other people's happy experience or have them feel awkward talking to me about it la so oh well. Sigh.

erudite?

2012-01-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DAYYYYY ((:

SAT in the morning! messed up the essay and topped it off brilliantly by accidentally spelling gaddafi's name wrongly. sigh. shouldn't have spent so much time planning the essay haha but oh well at least it's over and the other sections weren't too bad!

i nearly LOL-ed when i saw the word "insipid" in the vocab section though - it was the first word that Tian Pei tested me on when he was giving me some vocab crash course yesterday HAHA. and it came out!! yayyyy.

the rest of the paper wasn't too bad but then again, you'll never know what careless mistakes you make until the results are out - Feb 16th, fingers crossed(:

got lost on the way back, had a lovely nap in the afternoon and then off for church(:

hehehehe i was smiling throughout mass, can't help it when i see people that make me happyyyyyyyyy((:

dropped by Pei Yuan's house after, his fishtanks are damn cool! AND I OCCUPY A TINY BIT OF HIS ROOM WALL HAHA my buddy is awsmmmmmmm. (:

today is a happy day (:

2012-01-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

THIS SMS MADE ME LAUGH HAHA BUT IT'S SO APT DON'T YOU ALL AGREE I'M A GENIUSSSSSSSS

2012-01-27T20:32:00.001+08:00

life is fragile :(

(but we have no choice but to move on because the world waits for no one.)

2012-01-26T15:17:00.000+08:00

Wear Sunscreen
By Mary Schmich of the Chicago Tribune

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they’ve faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind side you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts. Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long and, in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees. You’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t. Maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t. Maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings. They’re your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.

Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you’ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you’ll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair or by the time you’re 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

2012-01-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

Seeing the juniors study so hard for SATs is very disconcerting ._. Haha dayum so much for Econs and SAT papers like what I announced on fb.. I spent 1 hour doing HL stuff :( had to do it sooner or later haha but still this means my sleeping times just got pushed back by an hour!

I HAVE A NICE CUP OF WARM MILO NEXT TO ME OKAY HERE I GO

Pumped up kicks

2012-01-25T20:14:00.001+08:00

Hehe my brother beat some raffles kids and won a bronze medal at some sci competition :D plus my sister actually shared her toys when I brought her to the park just now :D and seeing that she's one of the most selfish people I've ever known, this is quite an achievement HAHAH.

So proud of my siblings ((:

this love is ours

2012-01-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

was really really happy today. visiting relatives was a pretty painful process in the afternoon but i had fun smsing/whatsapping awsm people on the road or just as and when they replied during their breaks from their own visiting/when they managed to get wifi xD

quite odd to see these relatives just once a year when some are actually really nice. but even so, there are also others who... let's just say i'm glad we only see each other once a year. most of the time i just kept quiet and exchanged glances with my bro while my mom did the socialising haha.

went to mama's house after that and played blackjack with my maternal relatives :D HEHE that was fun, won $22 :D

my mood sort of got dampened a bit after i logged on to fb and i saw the video that's being shared by so many people on my friends list, and sighhhhhh i just can't help but feel sad. :'( THIS IS WHAT REGRET FEELS LIKE. not that i can do anything about it oh well.

things will get better soon haha.

keep my mind off the edge

2012-01-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

hahahah it's not even anything particularly exciting. i'm being ridiculous, but i can't help it. oops.

it's not enough

2012-01-20T20:43:00.003+08:00

the feeling of realising that there are so many other people who mean so much more to me than you do is so liberating. glad to finally be over all this nonsense hahaha i'm so.. relieved.

yay ((:

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school is not bad haha i sit in front for all lessons tgt with Selene, Keivin and Sarah and Rach. Hope it pays off but even if it doesn't at least we tried (:

sitting in front is actually pretty fun in a weird way because we can joke with the teacher (esp if its vector) and asking questions is really easy because i can just ask the person next to me and the teacher will hear it anyway HAHA.

tutorial day today! made better by kueh lapis, white chocolate fake kit kat and homemade loveletters during the usual food party in GP (: did hodge lodge filming after that with the welfaries and welfs - OUR VIDEO IS GOING TO LOOK AMAZING. (and i learnt how to video with a dslr!)

slacked around and slept with Parisa on the comfy bean bags for an hour, did more filming with Foong and Sudeep and then went home. my kind of day (:

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CNY coming up and i dont feel particularly excited for it, never did. i think the problem is that i dont have many relatives to visit in the first place, and out of the few that i do need to visit, all of them live at opposite ends of singapore so usually most of the time is spent on the road ._.

i never play with my cousins because of our family feud and the other cousins which we're on good terms with are too young to play with my bro and i. (think kindergarten and lower primary) sigh.

haha i think my CNYs are characterised by exponential increases in smsing while travelling x) and this year is probably gonna be no different, haha though since charlie is going to malaysia that means i'll have one less smsing buddy :(

hahaha but cny has nice food hmmm okay maybe it won't be so bad after all(:

happy thoughts!!!

caught up in this moment

2012-01-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

school is fun i love school. i love 7A(:

hahah lessons are the usual but the breaks are insanely fun. lately people in my class have been hijacking my phone A LOT (my password is too easy oops) and sending shit to other people on my phone.... it's really quite epic.
yay smart charlie (: (:
Jon is retarded. reply so fast somemore, he was having so much fun -.- hahaha
HAHA YOU GUYS ARE FULL OF SHIT HAHA WHAT PETER WHAT PAUL.
haha sudeeeeeep. (Y)

aye but nothing beats the sms to foong.
hahahahh okay i think i'll change my phone password soon.. asap.

what we have is worth fighting for

2012-01-17T22:34:00.002+08:00

haha okay lately my moods have been really topsy turvyyyyy... today was such a happy day, in contrast to how awful i felt yesterday. i think i alternate between living the way i do and feeling really happy and then when the reality of school sinks in i get really worried :/

but i shall just enjoy each moment as it is.

hehehehehehe i don't even understand why i'm so happy. i know the reason why, but i don't understand the reason. does that make sense? hahaha.

fingers crossed, i wonder how the rest of the week will be.

2012-01-17T01:52:00.001+08:00

Who am I kidding, this isn't working out :'(

2012-01-16T02:26:00.003+08:00

hello woojit the babaaaa my dear blog stalker, we need to meet up soon.

text me a date when you're free and we go novena tgt? pray(:

Just a shot in the dark that you just might be

2012-01-16T00:54:00.004+08:00

short blogpost before i'm off to do my chem holiday homework oops. hopefully i can sleep by 2.30am.

Anyway, our term has barely started and yet it feels like months of school has passed already. it's quite scary how all of us just plunged right into mugging and homework, but i guess this year is going to be like that!

Wednesday: BUDDY DINNER! with our cousin buddy family as well (: Anthea, Ben, YinWen, Amos, Momo and Jenny!

the whole dinner was amusing and funny, and our buddies treated us to ice cream! and i gave PY his going-to-army present HAHA.

Thursday: bummed around the Council room after school and then off home early for once (:

Friday: studied in our homeroom after school with Cailyn, Parisa and Naj... fruits party (Y) hahah i just wish homerooms weren't locked so early! Then we would've camped there all the way. met Adalie after that to attempt to mug haha but the RI boys were so noisy :(

family time after that, dinner and just general slacking. a good way to end the week(:

Saturday: tuition in the morning and then i went to church to study! haha Jon was there too, our favourite place(: aye and we were being retarded studying at different tables but i must say that's the only way to make it work or else we'd just get distracted. because once he joined me i just gave up on my GP and we wasted time. haha (:

mass was hectic ._. so many things going wrong at the same time :( and AV got semi scolded :(

ohoh and i had a nice 3.30am convo with someone i never expected that i'd be able to be close to, and it's awesome knowing that i can be goodfriends with someone else in class ((:

BUSY BUT HAPPY.

2012-01-12T18:30:00.001+08:00

Sigh this is annoyinggggggg I hate how it's getting blown up when it's not even true ._.

somewhere only we know

2012-01-10T22:35:00.001+08:00

Open house! yay another successful council function((:

Spent most of the time in the hodge lodge with Foong and Sudeep doing what welfaries and welfs do best (; hahaha.

anyway the highlight of the day was meeting my buddy in the evening :D he is awesomeeeee and i'm only writing this here because i know he'll never read this; hahaha he doesn't need his already huge ego to be inflated any further~

we went to his fave place and talked non stop for more than 3 hours? though it definitely didn't feel like 3 hours! and after i realised that i had arenes tutorial due the next day (and being the horrible procrastinator i am), i was pretty dead because at that point in time i hadn't even touched the lecture notes at all, so he gave me a half an hour crash course (:

i like how we're mostly on the same wavelength about a lot of things and.. yeah personality wise we're quite similar (Y) buddy dinner at nex tmr! excitingggggg :D

today is a happy day(:

Better than I know myself

2012-01-07T21:29:00.001+08:00

I do a lot of saikang. School saikang is endless hahaha thanks to council and other random stuff which always need people to help out with. Most of the time whatever we do doesn't exactly make a huge difference or anything, but it's necessary and someone has to do it, so yeah that's why we take up that saikang.

On the other hand, boonlay work is different. I mean most people would see it as saikang too but I think it's meaningful:)) like what Jason peixuan and I said, boonlay saikang is akin to slavery and the RC just taps onto the free labour provided by youth club. BUT i think we really are helping these people:) and at the same time I always feel inspired by them, cos what struck me throughout (from bring a hope, to MPS to facelift) was how nice and sweet these residents are, even when they don't have a lot. It makes me appreciate what I have more!

I am a Boon lay warrior :)

2012-01-06T00:44:00.001+08:00

Omg HAHAHAH my classmates are retarded - Keivin: "hey just curious, what's your eye power?" (he meant degree)

Hahhaa. Kk time to sleep for real, hopefully both of us can pass math tomorrow!!

rescue me

2012-01-04T00:51:00.006+08:00

okay maybe not all that more silly - serious post!

New year, new goals, new resolutions

i've been thinking about what Father Bosco said during his homily on sunday.

That wishes =/= resolutions. Most people don't realise the difference, and i never thought about it until he pointed it out! Wishes are things that you hope to get after a period of time. Resolutions are how you go about achieving these wishes. wise words :)

Wish: Good grades.

Resolution: Study and not get distracted. 5 hours a day!

that's quite generic because i'm a student, hence i'm posting it here.

the other wishes and resolutions shall be handwritten:)

Lego house

2012-01-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

today was fun! FamILY time(; our study sessions NEVER EVER work out hahah but at least it was productive in other ways... Talking about k and snoopy! HAHA. nice food at Jai Thai (:

Another nice happy thing that happened today: May said that she remembered I was asking about SAT books and specially smsed me to tell me that ding jun is selling his! Haha okay this is a really small gesture but considering we're not even very close I was touched :')

Hahaha lastly, my previous post was so serious! Can afford to be sillier for the next few ones xD

Hours to remember

2011-12-31T13:38:00.011+08:00

It's the end of another year :')

It seems like as we grow older the years pass faster.

I went back to my blog archives and read what i wrote on 31st December 2010. 2010 was a period of continuity for me, with the same circle of friends, the same class, the same school and not many big changes or new additions in my life.

On the other hand, 2011 was a year of change. 2011 exceeded expectations, in so many ways. there were ups and downs but i think i learnt a lot from every single one of these experiences, and this in turn shaped me to become a nicer and a better person. (i hope)

i'm going to try to be as honest as i can (bearing in mind that this is a public blog).

# Family

I've never gotten into so many arguments, or cried so many times ever in my life, than i did in this one year. Over my constant breaking of curfews and all other teenager-ish things. but the higher the walls, the harder you strive to push the boundaries and break down these imaginary walls i guess. But whatever the reason, i think i learnt to strike a balance and just come to a compromise with my parents over a lot of things. give and take :)

forcing me to give up oteam would be the blip in this otherwise happy family picture but then again, it's for the best. and their intentions are right even if it kills me.

i started taking care of my siblings much more, and in return i feel their love too :)

yknow how people always say that parents sacrifice the best food for their kids, like giving them the chicken drumstick or whatever? (i'm using a food example because i like food) i used to wonder why, but somehow in this year i think i know :) because when you love someone, self sacrifice isn't really a sacrifice anymore, it's just something that makes the other person happy :)

and i learnt how to take care of the house since the maid left. haha i admit i've never lifted a finger in my entire life to help out with housework because there simply wasn't a need to. okay i've washed a few plates before at home before but honestly it doesn't count for much. these 2 weeks made me appreciate what i have more, and realise that housework isn't as easy as it seems hahah. and cooking too ._.

spontaneous family road trips are pretty cool too. my family inspires me, and i love them :)

# Friends

i don't even know how to begin, all the awesome people who changed my life this year :')

This year was really different because i'm starting out in a co-ed school for the first time in 10 years. which really was pretty daunting at that point in time. but i think i've grown used to how school is like, and that the boys just make school crazierrrrrr. in a good way i guess :) i started off feeling a bit apprehensive because i heard from Sam(antha) that a lot of girls change in JC, so i didn't want to be one of them, and neither did i want my friends to change so much that we wouldn't be friends anymore.

the year has come and gone and what i realised is that in a new environment it's inevitable that everyone changes, but.. change is okay as long as change is for the better :) and boys aren't all that different, they're gossipy just like girls HAHA.

i won't list out names because that way i'm bound to accidentally leave some people out but yes, there are countless people who made my days happier and more bearable :) orientation was a blast, campaigning was an entirely new experience and my class just makes my day :) even boonlay YC is fun too, and my friends there are actually really really nice (:

whatever else i want to say is just too cliche and cheesy to be written but i think the people who made a difference in my life would know how i feel already, without needing to have me write it out here. thankyou(:

the one thing that i find fault with is that this year i smsed a lot. A LOT. i averaged 3000 to 4000 smses a month, which is quite absurd considering i don't even mass send smses for my class anymore. hopefully in 2012 i can cut back on this kind of chatting and engage in more real life conversations :)

# Academics

okay this year was utterly disappointing with regards to academics because i just failed/just passed and it was a shocker for me, especially after an all time high from sec4. i flunked CTs by my own accord, because i was so distracted by everything else and didn't study properly. no excuses. by the time it came to promos i think i improved but it was too little too late. ah well. no excuses. in 2012 i'm gonna suck it up and study.

but beyond poor scores i think this was a really.. humbling experience. haha really. in a school where people walk by and gawk at the deans list daily, it was a stretch to just come to terms with the fact that i'm just not as smart as i think i am. and to struggle with my perpetual laziness and my last minute studying methods which evidently do not work in JC.

anyway i call it humbling because i think as much as i'd like to believe otherwise, we're all a bit elitist and judge people by their grades. high, average, low, mediocre, stupidddd. as much as we don't want to, we still do. i definitely did, subconsciously or not i have no idea hahhaa. and my grades made me realise that it's quite sucky to be branded stupid. especially when sometimes the grades are bewildering because i didn't even know how they got so bad in the first place. ~~or for chem when i tried but just burnt out towards the end.~~ okay, no excuses. bad grades are bad but it's worse when others judge.

okay i'm having trouble putting what i feel into words. hmm. but the bottom line is, i found out the hard way that grades do not equate to intelligence and that when i see/meet people now and i hear about their grades i just take it with a pinch of salt because that's not who they are and they're definitely worth much more than that U or A, whichever it is.

But i must clarify something: i'm not downplaying the importance of good grades.. we're students after all. Having said all that i said above, we live in a competitive world and to survive we all need to be pragmatic and join in this frantic paper chase. so.. SOH JOH YI JOSEPHINE YOUR GRADES SUCK PLEASE BUCK UP OR SUFFER FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

# Me :)

-SECRET HAHA- if you want to know, must ask (:

# Everything else

i think i fulfilled my goal of being happy.

when i look back at J1 i'll just think of the people who made my life as amazing as it was, the friends i made, the fun times i had, the late nights i spent out, the late nights i spent studying in school, the crazy late night runs at RJ track, the busy days with Council and everything else. As much as possible i tried to give it my all, in whatever i did, and i just hope i can carry on with this in 2012 (:

If this was a movie

2011-12-30T09:08:00.002+08:00

Went out with J to study (sort of) and to meet his friend E at awfully chocolate :D yay i made a new friend! And got free ice cream and mousse and expensive brownies hahaha gosh.

And of course after that we had a truckload of fun being retarded around orchard ((: pink crystal roses and pretty silver recycled boxes! HAHA. thanks (;

Hurricanes of happiness

2011-12-28T23:02:00.001+08:00

Sometimes people surprise me with how genuinely nice they are. They don't need to boast, don't need to make a great show of what they're doing or make the most noise; but they show the most care and maturity in their quiet ways. :)

their talent is just that, being nice. Maybe schools don't recognise this kind of talent, but people do. I do! And in my opinion... these are the best people to be around and hang out with (:

Hehe happy dayyyyyy((:

And by the light of that same star

2011-12-25T15:32:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

a time of love, of spreading joy and of appreciating everything we have. (:

I THINK I'M GROWING :D

saw this on tumblr, it's too meaningful not to post it here (:

A thousand years

2011-12-21T16:21:00.001+08:00

Had a mini class outing today watching puss in boots!(: early morning movie haha. Anyway after that we went to build a bear and looked through their ridiculously expensive toys (and accessories for these toys). Haha we were particularly fascinated by 2 little kids building their own pink and blue bears, kissing the bear's heart and then bathing the bear and finally bobbing around the store trying to find clothes and shoes and the like for their new toys (the blue bear was named Brandon while I missed the name of the pink one). It was all really cute but at the same time I was wondering if all this is a bit excessive /: okay you pay for the novelty and all, but is it really worth it to spend 30 bucks on a bear and then another 30 or more dressing it up? I don't know... I think not, but that's just me.

In the same vein, i'm now starting on my new plan to save money, not for anything in particular, but because I've come to this realisation that I think nowadays everyone (myself included/especially) lead pretty extravagant lives and I just feel.. Guilty.

Not that I won't spend on others and be a miser, but my new plan involves me just buying what's necessary and no on-whim buys!!! AND FOOD OMG. I splurge too much on food. New plan says that yes I can eat good food but only once in awhile and if I spend more this time I either spend less next time or not spend at all (long run benefit: lose fats) hahaha

Bubble tea only once a month for me! And must find cheaper sources of entertainment. Okay those were just really random thoughts hahaha. Christmas in 4 days!((:

The one that got away

2011-12-18T14:38:00.002+08:00

Spent my afternoon sorting through a mountain of Lego with my dear brother - lots of silly colourful bricks and bionicle (: packing it brings back happy childhood memories! And for my sister she was just sitting there making noise about how she wasn't born yet when we were playing with all these toys. Kids these days play with scary and quite ugly toys haha I think we had it better when we were young!(:

And you got a smile that can light up this whole town

2011-12-17T21:44:00.001+08:00

Hehe my day is made (;

2011-12-14T17:19:00.002+08:00

Good ice team with good company :)hahah happy day spent hardly studying.. Nvm, time you enjoy wasting is not wasted!

You are the only exception

2011-12-13T11:18:00.004+08:00

FamILY! minus Clara who was out with her lover and didn't join us :(
Anyway It was fun(:

Dare you to move

2011-12-12T19:15:00.001+08:00

So many things have happened since grad night (which was awesome) :D shall post about it in detail later when i'm using my desktop since right now I'm typing this post on the mrt as I'm off to meet famILY. And I'm gonna be half an hour late I might add :/ (to Ruoxi: sorry D:, and to the rest who are all late too: hi five hahaha)

Have been trying to study a bit harder but uh as usual I think I'm not trying hard enough haha. Nvm I'm gonna slowly build up! Today was a good start anw, studying at coffee bean with Rachel :) I was really surprised when she asked me to study with her but I think it's a really really good thing because she's so focused and I need this kind of umm.. Guidance and motivation HAHA. read macro econs for the first time! (Y) about time too. Hahaha

Past few days have been restful + eventful as well, and I shall post abt it in detail later. Shall put the points here so I won't leave anything out ahah
- hl shopping with Sudeep
- failed study sessions with Kim in school
- double wedding mass!
- exploring seletar with Jon
- catching up session at the soup spoon with Jane and esther

Happy days :)

Best years of our lives

2011-11-28T02:03:00.014+08:00

(love this song by evan taubenfield and Avril lavigne!)

Ahah two people told me to cheer up because my blogposts always seem so sad. haha okay la i just tend to rant here so it becomes some sad place to write write write.

in any case there are still a lot of things to be grateful for so i shall write :D happier stuff this time.

things that i've done over restructured timetable :)

(1) Outing with Jon! Haha it was crazyyyy we just did rubbish from afternoon all the way till night (:

ATE GOOD FOOD HEHE (:

our favourite fish and co for lunch ahah shopped at bugis then iluma then dhoby then Somerset and then randomly hopped on a bus to get off at novena to eat Thai express :D we basically walked non stop for at least four hours or more until my feet hurt (even though I was in my comfy wedges) and even his feet hurt too HAHAA.

Spent soooo much money that day though, tsk tsk tsk D: blew 30 bucks to buy inheritance for my bro too hahah. (which was worth the trouble though :D)

Went for 8.30pm Holy Hour in church after that, which was good since I haven't prayed properly in awhile. Good thing that Rio was there too, so both of us didn't have to do AV; and in a way just concentrate on mass. AV is fun and a meaningful job la haha but sometimes it distracts a bit too much from mass itself 0:

And so, blessing #1: I'm thankful for our friendship because here's someone who I know that I can count on whenever and whatever, esp since he knows me well enough after so many years! Especially especially since he can take all my angst-ing hahah. Laugh laugh laugh hehe I promise I'll act surprised and carry the bag everywhere after Christmas ok :D

(2) council retreat!
Which was crazy fun in its own way (: haha thistle hotel was a miracle because none of us ever expected it to be so... Nice. Haha our packing list included soap and towels so we thought that the hotel we were going to didn't even provide those stuff at first ._. Thankfully we were pleasantly surprised. Ahah more than pleasantly surprised actually! The hotel was beautiful :DD

But apart from the hotel and the delicious food and lovely room and the presence of constant connection from singtel despite being in jb...

Blessing #2; being in welfare (: I mean really, welfaries and welfs are my kind of people hahah I think I would feel lost in ccad or houseD! I like the girls there and the guys are the nice nice kind of guys similar to those in 7A which is pretty darn awsm (:

not forgetting my awesome roommates who made retreat a blast. Blessing #3: PROGS FOREVERRRRR.

rooming with them was absolutely hilarious with lynn boiling water and yoke being the Epic Environmentalist. haha auntie lynn brought milo and maggi mee and had so much fun boiling water such that she boiled water for me to help fill up the bathtub for me to soak in HAHAHA. and yoke being the person who wants to SAVE THE EARTH refused to let us drink the bottled mineral water or get room service to tidy up our room in order to help save resources. which worked out fine i guess, cos lynn would just take that as an excuse to boil more water HAHA. love you guys :))

(3) famILY outing

while most people would go home and crash, after council retreat i went home, slept for 2 hours and then went off for famILY outing proudly wearing my "always late but worth the wait" shirt since i overslept and only managed to joint them at far east after dinner. hehe.

they had dinner at some fancy korean restaurant in far east, but i only managed to join them for dessert at Cedele :)

going out with these retards just feels.. right. :)

and it amazes me when i think of how far we've come since this whole year is nearly over! i think most people would find it hard to believe that from sec2 to sec4 we didnt meet at all but now... yay (: christmas party soon!

anyway these people have occupied my fb dp since February... need i say more? that'd be blessing #4!

(3) Random spontaneous ice cream chat with kim and elyssa!

Originally we weren't even supposed to go out that day but at the last minute kim's meeting with her bestfri was cancelled and gradnight meeting ended early so we went out for froyo :D also since i didnt feel like going home so early (council really has conditioned me to think such that going home in broad daylight is weird)

shopped around for iphone covers and i didnt manage to get anything but kim got one to match mine.... HAHA our couple case.

ANYWAY we walked all around before going for froyo at glacious which is lovely :D my favourite froyo place haha since i get to choose the amount i want and add as much granola on top as i like. talked about random rubbish and then all of a sudden we saw Elyssa! with grace and nic and clarissa. and then like 15 mins later elyssa came to join us to talk :D two of my favourite friends in the same place, that's definitely blessing #5 straight from God :)

(4) family, the real one :)

i know my mom can be really demanding sometimes but i guess that just shows the um, extent of her love haha. i'm lucky to be in this family - to laugh, to cry, to have my entire being shaped by these people who make up the backbone of my life.

spontaneous road trip to desaru was gooood, haha i think i needed the escape from technology for awhile! (i'm becoming wayyy to reliant on my iphone haha which is bad!!)

going back to desaru brings back memories because the last time i went there was when i was in pri sch (too young to remember) and yet going back there had this whole dejavu-ish feeling to it. stargazing there was a beautiful experience :)

and family bonding time is another priceless thing i guess. (: and so, Blessing #6! for family who will always be there - for parents who make the effort to bring us closer together and for siblings who i can love and love me in return.

(5) Class! even though it feels weird since this is the first time i'm in a class without a clique i know i'm beyond lucky to be able to sort of more or less talk to most people in class :) anyway yes class outings are awesome.

apart from the apple of my eye outing we had another one recently though i came late because i had boonlay stuff on in the afternoon. and this time i brought my sis along! which was really fun because of the people and how we're all so comfortable with each other by now that we can just do shit together and laugh it off. the girls are like sisters and the boys are like mega nice brothers. i like :D

Watched players production with them too and it was gooood. very fun with all the sweets buying and stuffing the candy for Allee into the milk bottle in the dark HAHA.

it was also pretty cool how when i was in desperate need of a dress for PY's party and i SOSed the class, so many people offered to lend me their dresses (rach, amanda, chanel, cailyn :D). haha the benefits of being in an all girls class hoho.

Blessing #7(A) :D

(6) outing with Aldrea! which was good because i'm glad we're still able to talk just as we did in sec 3 and 4 :D awesome possum~ blessing #8: keeping in touch with friends :)

(7) PSB Night, i know i posted about it a bit a while back but it still makes me happy.

So proud of Eda for surviving a year as HR head, which i know from experience is anything but easy. (IT REALLY HONED MY EXCEL SKILLS HAHA)

JJJ and i am gonna make good on my promise to be as good a PSL as yingxuan is :) OUR PSB REUNION IDEA AH HAHA. (:

(8) Yuxiang's concert at TP!

dude, you were amazing :)

it's an inspiration to see you sitting there on stage singing your heart out! we need to catch up properly soon :D haha so proud of you ((:

and apart from that i think i'm really grateful for kim and clara who accompanied me there - because i know you all probably dislike possibly boring concerts but you two still gamely went along though you don't even know a single person from TP choir! and you two had the patience to paint my nails. 'nuff said. HAHA.

haha there are many more things to be happy about, and i'll just try to keep them in mind :D

I’d never thought I’d have to let you go / I’d Never thought I’d ever feel this low

2011-11-24T01:22:00.001+08:00

moves like jagger came up on my playlist and listening to it made me feel immeasurably sad. i generally dislike dancing but the batch dance was actually fun.

yes i am officially out of OTEAM - my mom sort of cornered me into it and really, in a way i have no choice.

it's highly ironic that i spent so long talking to so many people trying to decide what was best for me wrt orientation when given those 3 choices (to drop, to take on a reduced workload or to just go on as per normal) and in the end the decision isn't even mine to make.

dropping it would be mainly to study more (somehow), reduced workload would be the easy way out (but would go against my general motto towards life that things shouldn't be done halfway/halfheartedly cos why then should you do it in the first place..?) and going on as per normal would put my juggling skills to the test (with orientation, blyc countdown, homecoming, Hodge lodge, SATs and my focus tests -.-) BUT would of course be the most fulfilling choice and would give me a sense of satisfaction because no matter how hard things are, they usually work out in the end.

haha after so much deliberation and discussion i decided on the reduced workload thing because i think my juggling skills aren't that great yet and compromises are inevitable. yet when i showed my mom the bloody consent form she just overrode whatever i thought about ): no amount of convincing, coaxing and cajoling can budge my mom once she decides on something. and there's no way i can win an argument against her ):

i understand her concerns and they are valid, but i guess i just feel... sad about the entire thing. dejected, down, in the doldrums. it's something that i never want to miss. some people are dying to get into oteam and as a councillor i just breezed right in. i know when people realize that i'm not in oteam they'll probably think i'm either damn lazy/uncommitted or damn stupid to get kicked out. sigh. as much as i'd like to believe otherwise, people tend to be quite judgemental.

those 4 days in February next year when all the OGLs are happily at orientation are gonna be downright unbearable buttttttt since my mom made the decision on my behalf already and there's no turning back, i might as well just suck it up and bear with it anyway.

HELLO ME, STAY STRONG.

everything will be okay in the end, and if it's not okay it's not the end (:

Spinning around, wont let you fall down

2011-11-21T23:51:00.001+08:00

The sad thing about expectations is that you always end up feeling disappointed when things don't match up to what you want it to be like. And yet you can't help but continue to expect certain things, just, because. Sigh.

Ultimatum and the verdict is that I probably will end up dropping oteam? Idk it's still so undecided because I still have 4 days to convince my parents and to figure out what is best. And I'm giving up a family holiday for grad night prep heh I know it'd be worth it (actually no i have no idea but i made a decision and i'll stick with it) but I just hope my family can forgive me for it.

Aye, but sometimes I just wish that school and family wouldn't always have to clash so much ):

2011-11-21T00:03:00.001+08:00

Happy feet 2 with my sister (: making good on my promise to bring her out more often hahaha

Next up: puss in boots! Should ask more people to watch it with the two of us hmm then it'd be more interesting (:

2011-11-21T00:01:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the false hope :/

this is looking like a contest, of who could act like they care less

2011-11-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

sighhhhhhhhh why is this happening all over again ):

on a sidenote, GP ESSAY! LJ 800 WORD REFLECTION! MATH ASSIGNMENT!

life sux.

2011-11-12T01:15:00.001+08:00

Gosh so childish. Not even in the movie 'apple of my eye' cute kind of childish, just... Stupid. -.-

Unexpected what you did to my heart

2011-11-12T00:38:00.001+08:00

Idk why I feel this way when I should be feeling really happy haha. Oh well, retreat tmr and even though it's 1227am now I'm still procrastinating the packing ._.

Had an awsm day out today, 1111! Hehe (:

Went for class outing, which was amazingly quite successful since ppl of all cliques went hehe! Watched a CHINESE movie titled Apple of my eye which was sweet and entertaining (the girls cried the guys probably laughed until they cried -.-)

Went to play pool after that! Quite fun though I'm so noob at it haha gosh I was only good at one game then for the rest I pretty much sucked HAHA OK NVM pool's not my thing...

Left early to go for psb night (: I miss psb, the feeling of being really bonded in a board that was committed to the same goal and all. I learnt so much from Being hr head.. I learnt more there in 1 month than in the entire 6 months I've spent in council now tbh ><

haha I miss spsb! And jj (: it's really true that sec school gives one the best memories ever! And singing the psb songs was just a heartwarming experience haha. We miss it even more because such stuff would never happen in jc anymore. Talked to my juniors and it feels weird thinking that just a year ago we were also worrying about Jc and subj combinations and yet look at us all now (:

Never regretted this choice of subject combi hehe CMEG ftw (:

Went back to plaza sing after PSBN cos I left my jacket with 7A ppl haha and watched the girls torture ct and was amused that Bok and yz were smsing each other though they were sitting directly opposite each other ._.

Haha yay so this pretty much sums up the day though I had so much fun and laughed so much ((:

I love 7A! okay la I feel blessed in many ways.. must count my blessings (:

Be still

2011-11-05T00:56:00.001+08:00

Wow okay this is the first time that I'm using my iPhone to type a blogpost hahah but it's pretty cool... I think with this I'd definitely update much more (:

Sigh these past 3 days have been crazy.

Got my new phone on wed night and then since then I've been having fever and headaches all the way :/ and it's insane considering how I lost 2kg in 2 days ._.

My parent being overseas now, both my siblings being sick too and pw op isn't helping

I'm tired ):

2011-10-25T22:21:00.003+08:00

so tired. i hate it when people scold me until i cry -.-

and it's annoying how things just don't go the way i want them to this year :(

2011-10-18T23:13:00.001+08:00

i dont know why i'm feeling this way ):

time to get lost in doing gradnight stuff~ at least it'll keep my mind off stupid things.

all about us

2011-10-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

Take my hand, I’ll teach you to dance.
I’ll spin you around, won’t let you fall down.
Would you let me lead, you can step on my feet.
Give it a try, it’ll be alright.

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s all about us.

Suddenly, I’m feeling brave.
Don’t know what’s got into me,
Why I feel this way.
Can we dance, real slow?
Can I hold you,can I hold you close?

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s all about us.

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready?
Oh I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

i love this song; playing on repeat! (:

2011-10-09T11:47:00.001+08:00

i have to pack my room but i'm too lazy to move. it looks like a warzone now, only worse i think ._.

2011-10-06T22:13:00.002+08:00

hehe. :D i'm still so amused every time i think of what happened.

i ate a lemon omg. NEVER AGAIN HAHA.

it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (:

2011-10-05T23:50:00.004+08:00

today was amazing i dont even have words to describe it. maybe i'll try describing it tmr.

from 1 to 10pm that's 10 HOURS TOO SHORT HAHA.

i doubt i'd ever forget it (you wont too hahah) but just in case i better record it down. awsm awsm awsm awsm hehehehehehehe

every day the happiness just builds up :D

for good;

2011-10-05T11:01:00.005+08:00

had pw lecture and then went out with Adalie today! (:

FOOD TRIP; SO FUN.

first up at ion food basement!

LOOKS GOOD TASTES BETTER.

and omg, adalie was torturing me with all her lateral thinking puzzles.. which are actually pretty cool. i still like the first one the most,

Jack and Jill died and around their bodies was a pool of water and shattered glass. how did they die?

hehe. walked around ion, where she blew 90 bucks on a sling bag. haha ok it was nice :D walked around somemore, took an mrt to somerset, walked more, bought pretty sapphire-ish necklaces!

walk walk walk and then we mrt-ed back to nex where we had dinner (we are such pigs)

pastamania is (Y). idk but this lamp reminds me of narnia HAHA

our to do list on the receipt (ELYSSA AND ESTHER DO YOU SEE THIS?! we have 2 months to accomplish this)

after that we went to the library (because we are nerdy like that hehe), went to eat dessert (AGAIN)

bought more accessories (ROSES), before calling it a day!

love you pongz (:

2011-10-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

haha ok i don't feel as crazily high as how i felt 3 hours ago but i think that's just cos i'm in a really.. sombre mood after reading a walk to remember and trying to comfort joel. sigh. i dont even dare to sms judith because i don't know what to say ):

if my grandpa passed away i would bawl my eyes out and esp if i have regrets i would just die a little bit inside too. can't do anything for them except be there for them but argh it just feels like it's not enough. and to think it happened so close to joel's Os. poor boy ):

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then i started thinking about regrets, and i am SO tempted to just tell you everything. but i won't, haha sigh whyyyyy does life like to make us run around in circles like this.

2011-10-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

promos are over ((:

i watched johnny english with 7A today, satisfied my fish and co craving, got funky nail polish, ran 5k and walked home from serangoon stadium.

life is good :)

and don't tell me you're sorry cos you're not;

2011-10-01T16:15:00.005+08:00

cant wait for promos to end hehehehe so many exciting plans ahead!

1) FamILY outing (what where when how? - doesn't really matter actually, you can throw the 5 of us in an empty room tgt and we'd still find ways to amuse ourselves)

2) Pongz sleepover :D bake date? hehe OH AND MARINA BARRAGE KITE FLYING EXPEDITION. HAHAHA

3) 7A outing/sleepover would be kinda cool, not sure if it'd work out but still cool hehe.

4) OG sleepover! yenter shall be nice and plan it.

5) outing with aldrea :D this time we MUST skype amanda khoo hehe. and maybe have a movie date? :D

6) outing with JJ! Jessie's exams end on the 15th if i'm not wrong hmm.

7) outing with Eda! i want to see the new HR head HAHA.

8) school tours with jon HAHA! one day for ri one day for sa (Y)

9) outing with alch? hmm.

10) tuitioning joel for his Os!

11) GRAD NIGHT PLANS. so exciting. plogs will be going full steam ahead!

12) planning mega mugging madness O: for seniors!

13) HL REVAMP! sudeep and i have grand plans which we better try to carry out asap before i get offloaded again

14) and many many more such as the running thrice a week thing with kim HAHA (Y)

i can't wait (:

2011-09-30T23:45:00.003+08:00

things happen, stuff change; all part of God's plan! if i can tolerate everything else, why can't i bring myself to tolerate this. ): it's just extra disappointing when the people closest disappoint you.

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hehe on another note, i'm grateful for surviving a week of promos, if i can pass math it'd be a mini miracle in itself cos i completely didn't study it the day before. totally wasnt in the studying mood. I COULDNT BRING MYSELF TO DO ANYTHING PRODUCTIVE. i just sat at my desk, stared at the same page for 2 hours and then went to sms people to say that i was siann and demoralized. i sent like 200 smses that night i think ._. good going jo.

hahah today wasnt much better, had chem consult in the morning and ATTEMPTED to study in school. ok la it was productive in the early afternoon when i was at rj... after that ah. horrible. talked to kim and bong in the afternoon, watched teachers play sports in the evening (cluster interschool sports competition for teachers HAHA), had fried rice dinner, walked back to rj, went to run around the track (HAHA), went back to rj. by then it was already 9.45. and what did we do after that?

WE WENT TO LIE DOWN ON THE ASTRO TURF AND STARGAZE HAHAHA SRSLY. kim wenz and i are super cool manxzzzz (Y) hehe but it really is very lovely i like :D the wind just makes it 10 times better!!

haha still have chem to go but it feels like promos are over already!

2011-09-25T00:29:00.004+08:00

i'm aching all over today thanks to the run yesterday HAHA DANG I FEEL SO NOOB.

studied in church today! and today i also found out that my bestfriend is lefthanded. whoops sorry B i fail. thanks for the sweet swiss roll though, you 'handsome' boi. HAHA. the swiss roll reminds me of our rent-a-tv thing last time, when you brought a big box for one small swiss roll i think hahaha. miss those fun timezzzzz. hehe.

on another note, GEOG.GEOG.GEOG.GEOGGGGGGGG.

I need a brain extension.

2011-09-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

i feel blessed for alot of things, when i know i probably should be studying about my lithosphereeeee. okay short break :D

while life has been a whole shitload of crap with promo mugging, i actually think i have quite a lot of things to be happy and grateful over haha.

for one, WR IS OVER. like over over over. chi tun and i progressed from baby steps to baby jumps to finally being able to jump for joy (7000 to 3500 to 3300 to 3030 to 3003 to 3000! hehe we're awsm) it's quite amazing that the two of us stayed up the entire night (wed to thurs) to cut words, edit transcripts and talk about music HAHA. (Y) if anything, pw made us a bitttt closer and it's always nice to have more good friends!

from kim's group and some other groups i realised that pw really really brings out the best and worst in people. but thankfully everything turned out okay for me, everyone kinda helped out :) it wasnt the most smooth sailing thing, but it could've been worse and yet it wasn't, so yeah, something to be grateful for.

and i love my daddy :D he's been fetching me to school quite often and i was so mega touched when he specially woke up on thursday to fetch me to school, cos he knew i stayed up the whole night before! idk i felt this huge huge huge urge to just like kiss him on the cheek or give him a hug in the morning but in the end i chickened out because it would feel weird since he's the one always kissing me on the forehead instead when he tucks me in at night hahahaa. shucks i'm getting incoherent. LONG SENTENCE dayum, bad for gp.

hehe so when mr koh asked us to describe how we were feeling in one word during civics, i said "happy". which is kinda very different from most of the class, since everyone is super stressed for promos. i am too, but to some extent i'm just leaving it to God heh. i try my best and see how it goes from thereeeee.

OKAY I SHALL PRACTICE GEOG A BIT.

The plates in the earth move about due to mantle convection currents, where thermal expansion of the rock occurs as it rises to the mantle. Contraction and sinking of the plates occur as it reaches the surface, hence causing the surface to glide across the semi solid asthenosphere. when plates move about and collide, they form convergent land forms. Convergent land forms can be oceanic-oceanic, continental-oceanic and continental-continental.

O-O: When two oceanic plates collide, the denser oceanic plate is subducted under the less dense plate, and gets dragged downwards and reabsorbed into the mantle. this forms Ocean Trenches and Island Arcs.

Ocean Trenches are long narrow troughs on the ocean floor that mark zones of subduction. these are deep depressions (as deep as 7500-10000m). e.g. marinna trench (11022m) and tonga trench. parallel to ocean trenches are island arcs, and seismic activity tends to occur under these island arcs.

Island arcs are formed due to the partial melting of the subducted plate and lithosphere as it descends down the benioff zone. Andesitic magma is produced and ... (shit i forgot D:)

something about how the magma is formed under high pressure, low temp (due to the cold descending slab) and surrounded by water (in the ocean)

Continental Oceanic: Ocean Trenches and Volcanic Arcs

When a continental plate collides with an oceanic plate, the denser oceanic plate will be subducted under the thicker granitic continental plate. (i forgot D:)

Continental-Continental: Fold mountains.

When 2 continental plates collide, both plates are too buoyant to be dragged downwards and hence are compressed together, and fused to form a chain of mountains.

shit la geog has too much to memorize. everytime i think i understand one part or memorize one part i;d forget the other. today i memorized mass movement so evidently i forgot everything to do with plate tec for convergent plate boundaries :/ grahhhhhh.

time to study! MUGGER MODE ON.

(hehe kim and i went running today! wenz and matthew probably thought we were mad. ah well. i love studying with kim and adalie :D even if to their face i tell them i hate them a million times. hah)

2011-09-22T00:39:00.002+08:00

haha i trust in God's Grand Plan for me. no matter what happens. :)

which makes me wonder, how do people without religions cope with the stress of everything? catholics and christians and all can turn to God for strength and support and trust that everything will be okay, but what about those who don't have this to fall back on?

kim, jonathan, adalie and i are still exchanging bible verses daily, which GMH :)

5 days to promos and soon it'll be over. whatever the outcome! even if i can't average D it's okay i just must get promoted.

2011-09-17T00:11:00.003+08:00

okay i'm going to give myself half an hour to rant because i need a break.

i feel super !*#!&(*! because there's not enough time to cover all that i want to cover and as much as i'd love to be sufficiently prepared for promos i just know that there's not enough time. and i don't have that much spare brain space.

today i spent the day at RI canteen doing functions and inequalities and i just want to die. two of the easiest topics in math and i was so stumped at inequalities. ): okay, maybe i was tired and sleepy but that's no excuse for that. this feels like CTs all over again, and i know as sure as hell that i cant afford that.

i think this goes beyond me trying to get good grades to please my parents; it's that i know that they spend so much money (they literally pour money) into my tuition fees which could go to, idk, helping other people or just saving up for other things. it's disgusting that even after all that i don't even have something to show that all that didn't go to waste. THEY SPEND SO MUCH EFFORT TO EARN THAT MONEY AND YET I WASTE IT BECAUSE I CAN'T GET MY HEAD IN ORDER AND ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTIONS. i feel so.. guilty. and sorry ):

and for the first time ever, i actually want to do well to prove to MYSELF that i'm actually half as smart as my whole family and extended family thinks i am. i breezed through rg so so so so so easily and now that i'm here in rj sometimes i feel so overwhelmed because everything feels so alien and hard ):

more than that, i voluntarily chose to offload myself from council work in august. the whole point was to get my studies in order and yet it feels like i freaking wasted my time because i was distracted with pw and all sorts of other rubbish. while i did do marginally more work, i think i know well enough that that's not enough. i feel quite bad because i sacrificed something that i like (council work isnt really like work i suppose, it's quite fun and it's just something that's tiring but fulfilling) to study but one month down the road it seems like a pointless, futile effort.

so if i can't study and can't do well then WTF HAVE I BEEN DOING THIS ENTIRE YEAR APART FROM PLAYING AND THEN STRUGGLING TO CATCH UP.

I FEEL SO STUPID ALL OF A SUDDEN.

sigh. okay end of rant. life goes on ):

10 more days!

2011-09-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

i think it's really really sad when people you know become people you knew.

hahah outpouring of emotions on my wordpress, the bad thing about a public blog is that IT'S TOO PUBLIC TO SAY ANYTHING.

i don't feel like studying haii. okay i really need to force myself to study out srsly! will camp in school and bugis library on my tuition days (Y) hahhaa

2011-09-07T00:27:00.002+08:00

i shall be a geek and quote transformers :D dont wait cos by then it'd be too late (;

if you ever come back

2011-09-01T03:57:00.000+08:00

so much to do but some things still make me happy:DD

BLYC cultural day on the 28th!

FUNTIMEZ. okay to be honest our event probably didn't help as much of the target group that we set out to help (immigrants), which really is quite a pity. but i think things can only get better, so i'll just look forward to an awesome countdown :)

LAST DAY OF SV WITH SENIORS :'(

makes my morning every day hehe. but i'm sure elyssa and brendan will do a great job continuing it :D

TEACHERS DAY!

7A gave ubin boy his custom made teddy bear which i'm sure he loves alot :D

back to RG to visit our teachers! :D

COUNTING MY BLESSINGS OK I LOVE LIFE. :)

2011-08-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

okay i was damnnnnn cranky today haha poor kim and jon had to bear with my angst-ing the entire afternoon. and i think i had this perpetually black face cos my classmates kept on telling me to relax but oh well. there's a limit to how much tolerance someone can have.

i want to go running!

2011-08-29T22:16:00.001+08:00

htht with kim today hahahhaha sooooo interesting omg. (;

reminisced about sec1 and how it kinda shaped us and changed our mindset towards certain stuff (like friendships) and of course i trust that kim's friendships have alot of POTENTIAL (; (; (;

HAPPINESS LEVEL UPPPPPP

forever and always, through the good and the bad and the ugly

2011-08-28T00:49:00.001+08:00

i wish i could turn back time. i miss us haha.

2011-08-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

i just thought about it and i realized i haven't played my cello in so long. right now even as i'm typing this my legs are resting on my cello.

Jake (that's the name of my cello HAHA) has been rotting under my table for more than 8 months already and i dont even dare to open him up anymore for fear of what is inside hahah since he really has just been lying there growing mold.

first thing after promos i am going to learn how to play secrets properly, even if it means bugging delia for help :) i know when i last stopped i could only figure out the first line.

giving up cello is a waste of what could've been but then again, i know i don't have the time. i wish i made the time though. ): AFTER As I SWEAR.

i have too many regrets already i should make sure the list doesn't pile up.

in that moment, i swear we were infinite

2011-08-19T14:22:00.002+08:00

reality

i know i'm not fat
but i am unhappy with my body

i know i'm not ugly
but i don't think i'm pretty

i know i'm not stupid
but i don't think i'm intelligent

i know i'm not poor
but i also know i am not rich

i know i'm lucky
but i don't think i am lucky enough

saw this on my friend's blog. gets me thinking.

idk sometimes i think i'm too discontent with life :/ when i'm really quite lucky already haha. must learn to appreciate my blessings!

AND LIVE FOR MOMENTS LIKE FRIDAY NIGHT HEHE.

I LOVE famILY OMG. :) it's amazing (really totally truly amazing) that i have friends like them hehe :) celebrated kim and clara's birthday at some atas japanese buffet restaurant at the heeren.

ruoxi ate 6 crabs i think. HAHA. clara wasnt far behind. jaclyn was pushing out crab meat from the crab (note: pushing). we were eating earl's dessert (HAHA) and having fun hiding disgusting food we couldn't finish. a prawn was swimming in the blackcurrant juice. THANK ME FOR THE BRILLIANT CAKE(S) PEOPLE HEHE. went crazy over truth and truth (family style) and as usual the 4 of us moped about being left on the shelf while ruoxi is already leagues ahead HAHAHAH.

we stayed at the buffet restaurant from 6 to 10.30 until we got chased away.

i havent laughed so hard, so much and in so long.

love you famILY (:

and to kim and clara! here's a haiku for your special day :)

my darling sweethearts
HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY
you love me a lot.

2011-08-16T21:42:00.002+08:00

"Worry is soul-suicide"-James Allen

i'm indirectly killing myself haha. if only life could slow down for just a bit.

2011-08-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY SO SPECIAL hehehehehe

for the first time

2011-08-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

i haven't posted in so long. so so so so so long. new record!

school has been really hectic lately but oh well that's life. at least there's this short break coming up. not much of a reprieve since we'll be doing work anyway but at least it's something worth looking forward to.

PW with Chi Tun (who i know is super particular about people spelling his name like that and not chitun or chi tun), lunch with bestie (or dinner? hmm either tues or wed. time to grill you in person about E hahahaha), tentative OG study session on wed!

i'm quite worried about my studies :/ but okay i won't complain.

be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.

i think this quote puts everyone's suffering into perspective, because while we're all dying sometimes i think i should be glad that the things that bother me are mostly school-related, and once out of that context i'm okay.

for one, i actually managed to go for quite a few SV sessions with elyssa and adalie last week! and it's so nice to just know that us pongs will always be there for each other, fart bag and all. HAHA.

and i really like SV!!!!! It's cool how we're all sort of friends now haha, and that though everyone's facing the same troubles, the j2s are a testament to how we'll survive this sickening thing called pw + promos.

plus i've woken up every single day this morning to beautiful bible verses, courtesy of a very very very nice jon :D hehe i only sent one to him randomly one morning and for the next 7 days he sent one everyday! makes me smile.

counting my blessings and not my mounting troubles.

i'll get through :)

2011-07-08T20:59:00.001+08:00

disappointing, disappointed.

like we used to

2011-06-12T15:17:00.000+08:00

CHINA TRIP!

pictures to remember it by :)this reminds me of the pretty flowers we saw in taiwan last year (:in shanghai (:
after sitting on their scarily fast high speed railway (300km/hr gosh ._.)in suzhou!in wuxi (:with our grandparents :D
in hangzhou i think.
back in Shanghai!
WHERE MY BRO PIGGYBACKED ME HAHA.

hehe okay i never wanted to go on the China trip (it made me miss CCAL camp D:) but aiya okay my parents spent so much on the trip so the least i can do is to appreciate what i have. got to know my brother much much better from this trip :D (CAN YOU IMAGINE US HAVING HTHTS AT NIGHT COS WE SHARE A ROOM HAHA)

will be drinking tea everyday now!

come and walk with me to the edge of all we've ever known

2011-05-29T12:16:00.008+08:00

school has been fun :)

okay i've been neglecting my work but argh apart from that school is amazinggggg!
dinner at J8 after our first council gm :)

12s07a! farewell gift for ms chiang, the funniest most epic econs tutor ever HAHA. her demand is perfectly price inelastic!hehe and in return ms chiang gave us cute mr men and little miss cookies! MR HAPPY

watched rjco concert with joanne on thursday (:
i miss the feeling of being in orchestra. i never thought i'd say it but i miss co! the whole feeling of making music~ i haven't touched my cello for more than 5 months already heh. so far it's just hiding under my table as my leg rest when i do work.

rushed off after intermission for workplan meeting. now i know why everyone says that councilors are mad busy but it's okay i trust that everything will work out and ultimately it'll be worth it :) TIME TO HANG OUT IN THE HODGE LODGE MORE PEOPLE. HAHAspsb :) welfare's jobscope is really SO MUCH like psb! which is why there's the danger that we tend to make a lot of references to things that psb did, though i'm trying to stop because that would just limit whatever council can achieve and might make people feel left out or wtv :/ 87, one family :)

final night! where i gave peiyuan his POSER presents hehe. and he gave me a LETTER like he promised. with wtv he wanted to say written on.. the letter J. HAHA best! (Y)

Welfare-MR combined sleepover at SA's house after that YUANRONG AND I ARE THE ULTIMATE BRIDGE WINNERS :Dsleepheads. though foong could jerk awake when certain stuff were mentioned. hahahaa.

rushed to school the next morning with macs nex breakfast! stayed for a bit of ccad interbatch games and then i went off to nex to meet elyssa ((((: MISS YOU SO MUCHHHHH.

this more or less sums up these past 3 days.
time to redo my gpp! :/

2011-05-23T00:24:00.003+08:00

why does everything have to be so complicated. why can't we all just lead carefree lives and hide away in some cottage far away, spend our days rolling around the grass, play in lakes and streams and.. i dont know, just enjoy life?

wish you were here

2011-05-21T16:17:00.004+08:00

can you really be friends with someone you don't really interact with? sometimes i feel like certain people i meet are true kindred spirits, that with those people there is no need for constant interaction and conversation, where i can just pick up where i left off, where there is this instant spark and connection.

the danger of taking things for granted always exists, but well, i truly am thankful that i have such friendships. at least, i THINK i do! haha i guess what i don't know won't hurt me! though perhaps when you start to form more meaningful relationships this level of non-commitment isn't acceptable.

i always agree with the things esther bobo says (:

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i've been feeling so exhausted lately that i really can't find the energy to keep up a proper conversation with some people. and this is just made worse by the fact that i tend to worry too much (and so far my list of worries just keeps piling up!)
i wouldn't want others to think that i'm boring/socially awkward/some other sad thing but then again, people are free to think whatever they what to.

on the other hand, there are some people who i can never seem to run out of things to say to. i've been going crazy with some people in my class HAHA and all these little things just brighten up my day :)

so maybe i'll just be grateful for that for now and work on getting more sleep like a normal person. (4 hours a day is far from enough)

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friday: happy happy happy day. END OF THE CRAZY WEEK.
plus napfa! this is officially the best napfa i've ever had hahaha can't wait for next year then i'll be free from napfa FOR LIFE :)

goal for next week: complain less!

bring it on

2011-05-20T23:18:00.004+08:00

COUNCIL LIFE :D
hahaha it has only just begun and already things are mad busy. BUT SO FUN :D
spent tues at welfare meeting at SA's house :D
welfairies and welfs hehe.

and then of course, Council Invest! BRING IT ON.
really different from SLI in rg, somehow council invest here feels so grand (hahaha must be the epic soundtrack!) peiyuan was being a (to quote li qi) 'bigshot on stage' so Arun became my buddy for blazer ceremony :) and i conclude that bw houseD is nice and very very very crazy HAHA
7A! (;
mt!
SPSB BOOMBOOMPOW. (:(: with mommy foong right on top!BUDDYYYY :D
i think the 30ths and 31st really think we're very similar haha which is.. only true to some extent :Pthis is only just the beginning. (:
i'm.. apprehensive yet extremely extremely excited :D

2011-05-11T00:39:00.001+08:00

HIGH TEA with a very cool person on wednesday ;D wanton mee at nex graffiti cafe!

first meetup in awhile yay. (erh hi?! HAHA. you're full of nonsense omg)

hehe but i seriously wasn't expecting that at all ((: idk what's up with you and post its but wowz, that was quite creative. reading it really made me smile.. and laugh at the silly retarded bits HAHAH but yes yes thankyouuuuu

YOU DA BEST :D

we just got over our pathetic phase (and hopefully it'll remain that way) so now let's just survive jc!

With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way

2011-05-06T15:04:00.002+08:00

from the sweetest people ever (:

love the cards and the pictures. i've said this repeatedly but i was srsly super touched! because i saw adalie's 12.30am sms much later and i thought she just wanted me to come to school earlier to htht or sth (i wasnt late for once hahah) and whoa. thanks pongz(:
but omg. the height gradient hahaha

i trust that everything will be okay in the end :)

love never fails~

2011-05-04T19:38:00.002+08:00

friends, please pray for my mom. she probably needs it but i dont like the idea of her going for an operation again. and if it fails again.. i dont think my heart can take it either.

must stop sighing. positive energy always ((:

2011-05-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

so worried for you :(

who'd expect it to fail? :(
gonna pray super hard.

at night when the stars light up my room

2011-05-01T01:17:00.005+08:00

hahaha i need to get a life omg.

SO MUCH TO DO:

famILY outing - can we please pick a nice place to eat btw? (:
pongz htht
jjj hr spsls meetup!
one person mgm with alch!
outing with esther the bobo and the jane dodo hahah
rachel's birthday celeb with other 7A peoplez. redbullpong? ._.
WATCH A MOVIE/HAVE A LAZY DAY OUT! with anyone really, i haven't seen a good movie in ages sia ): (hehe harry potter out on 15th july! definitely gonna watch with family, how EXCITING ;D)

HAHA. best to do list ever :D

should aim to complete this before the holidays ;)

2011-04-28T20:54:00.003+08:00

haha okay i've been trying to post motivational things in an attempt to motivate myself but i think right now i'm honestly just feeling quite tired.

ah well. geog test tmr! I.E tmr! camping out in school till insanely late times again~ hahah but i'm actually quite excited for IE, wanna see how everything turns out (:

and... even though it's a public holiday, i'm going back to school on monday morning for extra class. CHINESE class. chinese class TEST. will probably force myself to catch up on hw afterwards in school but wah that sucks. :(
hahaha i wanna drop h1 chinese so freaking bad!

2011-04-27T00:40:00.001+08:00

"I'm not telling you that it's going to be easy, I'm telling you that it's going to be worth it."

perseverance prevails when all else fails!

2011-04-26T13:28:00.000+08:00

I don’t have time.

But I’ll spend it with you, willingly. Knowing that it is precisely because time is precious that all the more I want to spend it with you :)

talking to the moon

2011-04-25T01:27:00.004+08:00

it's 1.27 am now.

i probably should be revising for my chem test later/sleeping but i'm giving myself a break because after 12 agonizing hours spent on PI, i think i deserve a short break! i have no idea if it's gonna get rejected again or not but if it does... i will :(

long weekend 1 has been pretty insane (but in a fun way too hehe) but ahh okay i will survive this next week of school, yes i can!

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ahh i have a feeling i'll be having match support practically everyday this coming week but i decided that even if there's MS on thursday, i'll leave early to go for boonlayYC! sigh i havent gone for cca in 3 weeks (class camp then sick then council internal elections) and... ugh i feel so bad.

after co/psb/congress clashing in sec4 i promised myself: never again will i overly compromise cca for lead boards or vice versa. i decided (like really really decided, not gonna be swayed anymore) not to try for any positions in council (not that i'd get it anyway, i'm too low profile hahaha) and i guess that's the first step to honouring my commitments!

so, balance between studies + council + cca.

the best that i can give.

I AM GOING TO TRY.

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okay 1.38 am now. this is such a disjointed post.

time to print my pi. bye!

2011-04-19T23:59:00.001+08:00

I can't be afraid,
Cause it's my turn to be brave.

2011-04-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

(1) i think i'm so silly and naive. no matter how much i convince myself to not care, i still do. hahahah stupid stupid stupid STUPID.

(2) council camp was whoa, experience of a lifetime (:

sprained my shoulder but i guess okay la it could've been worse hahah. feels a bit weird when people ask me "how's your shoulder?" though - are you supposed to give the reply that people want to hear, or have them stand awkwardly when you tell the truth? mmhm on another note, i think 31st are an awesome bunch of people and it'd be interesting to work with them (:

(3) mid life crisis

i am screwing up my school life gosh. :( i will be guai and camp out in the library tmr omg. i am behind on EVERYTHING, and match support season will just sap up my remaining free time :/

feelings of inadequacy :(

not entirely to do with work but still, i don't know how i'm gonna survive the coming weeks omg.

KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON. YES I CANNNNN.

best thing i never knew i needed

2011-04-12T23:27:00.004+08:00

hahaha was htht-ing with steph this morning before school and that made me think about my biggest regret from sec4. obviously i won't talk about it here but

-this is where i stopped yesterday-

SV today morning at the watermelon steps made me feel more at peace.

thank you (:

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plus i realized i'm starved of a good conversation with elyssa and adalie :(

SOON GUYS, SOON.

on another note, kelvin sim yuxiangggggg text me please, whenever you have the time to/smses to spare? we need to catch up! (: haven't had a proper conversation in.. 3 months? facebook wall posting is too public to allow us to talk and suan each other properly hahahaa.

here we go again

2011-04-11T15:02:00.007+08:00

you always want what you can't have. and for now i have a jai thai craving hahaha

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kinda sums up my week.

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class camp was amazing, WATERBOMBS + SPARKLERS + FOOD :D and elaine even brought spices for the food! most prepared class manxz :D
i'm very grateful to be put in 7A (: i think i'm someone who doesn't exactly make super super super good friends easily but i'm quite certain 7A has people like that so it's just a matter of time! :)

boonlay youth hands on, on sat morning at vivo was a complete waste of time -.- at least envirorace at boonlay garden primary school after that was better (:

FELL SICK AFTER THAT.
so from that point onwards my life has been: bed + medicine + smsing + attempting to do homework + using comp + smsing + food + sleep.

blue-slipped my way home today and i probably should sleep/study for econs test tmr/do my pi :(

MUST GET WELL ASAP AND GET READY FOR IMPENDING PHYSICAL AND MENTAL TORTURE.
if i fall sick again next week i will laugh.

wonderstruck

2011-04-05T21:44:00.002+08:00

haha it's been months but i still love the song Enchanted, remixed by owl city (:

on a sidenote, I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE CANS :D

ALL OF US GOT INTO COUNCIL YAY ((:

thanks everyone :)

time of my life!

2011-04-02T22:34:00.023+08:00

okay, COUNCIL CAMPAIGNING :)
i'm posting this before the results are out because i just want to say that no matter what happens, i'm glad for this entire experience because CANS have been awesome! i can't deny that this whole period has been stressful shit but it was really fun at the same time :D

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DAY ZERO - thursday
meeting up for the first time ever, and trying to think of possible names, themes, campaign ideas etc! SUP JONI HAHAHAH. most retarded name ever, seriously. our explanation for the name was even more bullshit. because we're friendly and approachable? and joni to represent any random rafflesian?!

it was quite awkward at first because all of us hardly knew each other but yeah even then we were productive and had fun! esp sitting across the FRIDAY group which sent spies over/looked so stressed half the time!

DAY ONE - friday, where the mad rush began~
meeting in school from 730 to 830 and then off to toapayoh to take our sleepy tired looking passport sized photos. 白衣男! hehe then all of us trooped over to my house for PROPOSAL CHIONGING~
okay but even then we weren't like super serious or anything. WE ARE SO FULL OF NONSENSE. hahah i think when you throw a bunch of people with a dslr, everyone just shows off their camwhore side (except sudeep of course :D)
girls in charge of proposal writing, and guys in charge of making words for the video!

nigel couldnt stay for the entire duration so he left around 12 :(
but he was with us in spirit.. being a retard on skpe HAHA :D non stop entertainment, esp with his chocolate munching.
that is until he conked out halfway at 4am HAHA. okay but by that time i was dying too already.

430 am: peiqi was rolling around the floor while sudeep and i were labouring over our disgusting speech draft!

DAY TWO - saturday

finally left my house at 6.30am to set off for macs breakfast + school. but guess what smart thing we did? after we reached J8 we realized that we left our HARDCOPY PROPOSAL (the thing we spent the entire night doing) at home -.- hahah cabbed back and rushed to school.

supposed to submit proposal at 8am but nigel came 12 mins late because he overslept :( sigh but it's okay, we spent the waiting time doing this:AND THIS WOOHOO.
but so cool omg, how many groups can say that they actually had a proper photographer helping them to snap their group pics? hehe you probably won't see this but thanks Subhankar!
note the sign. I AM VERY COOL. HAHAH shucks we all looked so shagged
EVERYDAY IM SHUFFLIN' :D stop motion!
coffee kids with cans :)THE MOMENT OF HAPPINESS :D
and after that came the sms spam, where peiqi and i smsed so many people to ask them to help out on sunday :) i think we were being thickskinned/shameless haha but desperate times call for desperate measures!

DAY THREE - sunday

met yuxuan late (whoops sry!) and then went to print the CANS! :) so pretty yay. and we were really smart, nearly taking the train in the opposite direction, AGAIN. but at least we finally managed to find our way to peiqi's pretty house!
hard at work cutting~
and then the stressful part about our script which seemed hopeless at that time :(
but i think despite all that stress over script, IT WAS REALLY REALLY FUN! thanks kim, clara, yuxuan, andrew, alicia, grace and joseph for sacrificing your sunday to help us out, we really really really appreciate it :)

cutting cans seem like such a boring task but i think andrew really provided nonstop entertainment all the way HAHA (Y)
dinner at pastamania! (:

DAY FOUR - mondaytechnically also known as day 1 of campaigning! giving out CANS in the CANteen hehe. i think seeing our pretty colourful cans all around school was a really awesome feeling, even more so when i saw people that i didnt know wearing them :)

and 7A was ultra supportive, all grabbing cans to wear. thanks guys you da best (:

DAY FIVE - tuesday

more giving out of cans, but i think the most amazing thing was that while other groups were panicking over speech in the canteen after school, our group went to the hodge lodge to play.
HAHA even kai lun (tallest guy) our scary mentor was super shocked!uno stacko!
WHICH I HAVE SECRET SKILLZ FOR. switched to guitar hero after that..
which sadly i've no skillz for :(clara's victory photo proudly snapped by sam.
FOOLSBALL.
(:photospammmm
dao face
happy face
EPIC FACE :P/:D

out for dinner with CANS plus a bunch of other funny peoplez at j8. food court + gongcha where i spilt half my taro milk tea :(

DAY SIX - SPEECH DAY. good start to the day (:

NERVE WRECKING. no other way to describe it. hahaha i'm not normally so nervous when presenting stuff in front of psb.. i guess talking to the whole of MT was a completely different thing. even when i went up stage actually i didn't feel super nervous but idk why my hands were super cold and shaky!

haha i know famILY sat right right right in front, and they were like "oh we could see your hands shaking.. but i think it was because we were in front la". but then when i asked huazhen, she said "oh i was sitting at the last row.. and yeah we could see your hands shaking" HAHA SIAN. at least sudeep did well because he was so calm and steady :D

spent the rest of the day hoboing around the canteen waiting for famILY to go out, and in the meantime sudeep and i went around trying to pull more votes hahah. i gave up really quickly but whoaaa sudeep has an everlasting amount of patience manxz, he was campaigning all the way till 5!

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and so, 6 crazy days of campaigning over, just like that.

i think i can honestly say that this was an experience of a LIFETIME. being thrown with a bunch of people that i don't know (apart from peiqi) and just.. working together very well. it's quite cool that we all complement each other so perfectly, and yeah, maybe we should thank ryan seah for randomly introducing pei and me to sudeep afterall HAHA.

thanks
CANS - for working together, suffering together, stressing together, playing together!
yuxuan, clara and andrew - our number 1 supporters hahaha. for helping out every. single. day. gosh. :D
kim - for well, being there. hahah and for pulling joseph in too!
ruoxi and jac - famILY support yay :)
adalie and elyssa - pongz support! and i'm sorry i missed out on so many of your HTHTs i promise to be there for all this week!
alicia - for all the help with speech and wtv, i think i got to know you a teeny bit more? haha
amanda, shin huoy, sherilyn, chanel, yuchen and basically everyone else from 7A - FOR CUTTING. HAHA
406 hehe love you all :)
everyone else really, for everything. all the small little things which made me smile :)

no matter the results, i think campaigning is something that i definitely won't forget, and i'm really really really glad for the people who were there for me all the way (:

thanks guys, you all are amazing! and i really really really mean it (:

2011-04-02T00:34:00.001+08:00

hah, i dont know why i even bother when it's so obvious that you dont.

2011-03-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

i need to be stronger :(

2011-03-21T22:16:00.005+08:00

hey bestfriend, i know you'll see this eventually so.. cheer up! currently your life really sucks haii but you'll get through it. it's really damn freaking unfair to you haii :(

but in any case, you got your brothers (haha i'm as good a fb stalker as you are) and you got me. turn that frown upside down :)

2011-03-21T22:00:00.002+08:00

haii, this makes me really really sad. and disappointed. and hurt. and there's nothing i can do about it except watch. and hope that it doesnt get worse.. though i have a feeling it will :(

i want to help you but i dont know how to :(

anyway, how can i help someone who doesn't want to be helped? or rather, how to help someone that doesnt know that this is wrong?

i'm confused :(
and i just realized that this post is very cryptic. sorry.